Judged by weight

Suddenly, I don’t have anything to say.  I write several blogs, and I wanted this one to be specifically about anything.  What a way to start.  I have a lot of stories. I’m full of memories.  Heard that last evening from President Monson at the women s conference.  He was in a joking mood, and made a fun talk about a very serious subject, “Being judgmental”. For my non Mormon friends, he is the current President of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints.

Today, I’m blogging about being FAT, a subject that is very judgmental!  Many people have judged me because of my weight.  I understand that, and wish that it weren’t so, but it is.  the more weight you carry, the more people judge you as less than what you should be.  No matter what else I did in life, how much I succeeded, even in high school, it was colored by my weight.  I’ve been documenting my current weight loss program on http://www.squidoo.com/how-to-lose-weight-with-watkins.

At first I heard jokes, and songs about not being able to get through the bathroom door, and other such things.  Then I was counseled that I could do better at such and such if I lost weight.  This was while I was still in high school.  The first diet I went on, was with my Father.  I was 14, and Mom went somewhere with my brother and sister for a while.  don’t remember much about it, but Dad said that he would go on a diet with me.  All I had to do was choose the diet.  I went and found a 10 day diet.  He and I went on the diet, and I did lose weight.  We both even ate Aspic because it was on the diet, and I didn’t like it at all.  I made all the foods and most were good.  I did lose weight, but that started me on my journey to being fat.  (I didn’t realize then that I was just 15 pounds overweight.  Now, that is a drop in the bucket.)

How did that simple diet cause me to become fat?  Well, I lost the weight, but shortly after losing it, I gained it and then some.  This became the pattern of my life.  Lose and gain then some.  I had a granddaughter I tried to explain this to once and did very poorly, she was very distressed that I even brought it up.  I just wanted to let her know the value of learning to eat healthy at her age, rather than grow up being a loser and gainer like I did.

Learning how to eat healthy at an early age, and keeping it up throughout your life is the secret to being the correct weight for your size.  I know that now, and so I’m trying a new approach to weight loss.  I’m trying to adjust the things that I like to my appetite.  By that I mean controlling the portions, along with the fats, sugars, and bulk I’m eating.

So far with the help of Watkins Weight Management Plan, at http://www.Watkinsonline.com/kaiser, and their healthy supplements, I’m losing, slowly, but surely.  I hope to keep this up until I lose all the weight I need to lose, about 100 pounds.  I just started this diet about three weeks ago, and am blogging about it to help me stay on it.  I need to do something if I want to do the things I like to do for the rest of my life.  I don’t know how long I have left, but at least I’m getting as healthy as I can for my age.  I’ve discovered that dreams don’t die, desires are still there, and so I want to take advantage of both of them for as long as I shall live.

I’d appreciate any comments, suggestions or help anyone can give me.  I need a lot of it.

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